To be honest, i'm just JEALOUS of people who actually say it's easy and who actually had the time to learn it. They just say “The sky is the limit! You can do anything you want with code!” Yeah? What about taking the time to actually feel imprisoned and study code in your jail cell that you call “home computer”? I think people who study it for passion are a bunch of idiots who want nothing but waste time or just so they can get big money.
I'm horribly stressed by how much TIME, EFFORT AND PRACTICE it takes to make a shitty excercise project, and something as dumb as a 2D game that doesn't even have a goal or anything, i mean a simple practice project. I literally (i'm not lying, seriously) started to cry because how much of a burden and how heavy the topic is to me. I have seen my interest of music and animation is starting to eat up my interest for game development. Yeah, even if indie music is completely pointless other than getting 2 views on bandcamp, and indie animation is starting to become cliché and very demanding for the public's likeness, it's driving me crazy.
Yeah, the triad of successful game dev (Music, Animation and Programming) is slowly turning apart, and my goal since was to become good in these 3. Not even an expert, just so good that i can make good games that aren't made with “Standard gamejolt game with stereotypic pixel art" essence.
I feel hopeless. I think it's totally impossible to give my future games an unique essence because they'll end up in the “Standard 2D Game” pit. Currently in my musical experience i can do no more than take others' musical pieces and rearrange them so they can “be something that i made”, and i haven't even made something related to animation, just some sketches and amateur drawings typical of a horny teenager who wants to draw anime girls in bikini.
It's funny- no, it's a fucking circus that i have to spend 2 years, not sleep for weeks, buy 30+ coffee packs per week, use up 30 pencils taking notes and say “no, i will eat dinner later” learning C++ and ALL of its features just so i can MOVE THEM ASIDE and chip away what works to make a game. Sure, it's more of an innate sort of laziness and procrastination, but still, it's fucking bullshit. Everyone thinks programming is a cakewalk but they're all retards.
Whenever i think “Oh! this will make my game cooler!” or “The character will look awesome doing this!” i almost immediately lose all hope and remember i can't fucking make it happen. I just can't. Every time i try i actually feel like it is too much for me. And no, i actually don't have the feel of leaving it completely. I have more than 9 games with different genres planned.
As an expert procrastinator, and guru of laziness, this has driven me near insanity. Wish programming was made easier so i can't WASTE MY TIME paying on idiotic courses and learn how to make a program for a company, thing which i absolutely am NOT doing. Also, wish someone could fucking shove a syringe up my brain and extract away all the “procrastinite” inside.
“Learn C++ so you can make games easier!” *makes a quick google* Hmm, Does it work for 2D and 3D games?
“Yes, and it's easy to learn!” *googles again* Wait, does it really work well for GAMES, and not systems?
“Yes! It works very well!” *googles one last time* It says it's more error-prone.
“That's the fun part!!! Or else, learn JavaScript!” *sees it's javascript* NO. JUST NO.
Heh, JS isn't even made for games. Python is way too basic for games, and C++ has too many technical differences with C#.
